I have my second interview today.
:D
Im nervous
It's for office work. Like a real job
It's so exciting. And it has to deal with photography. It's a picture company for like family pics, or school, whatever.
It's at 2.
Wish me luck.
xoxo
Friday, August 20, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Everyone attention
I have a tumblr Go to it.
http://franticfinds.tumblr.com/
random stuff. :P
Im updating more and more on my Youtube. GO to it. :)
http://www.youtube.com/user/franticfoxx
http://franticfinds.tumblr.com/
random stuff. :P
Im updating more and more on my Youtube. GO to it. :)
http://www.youtube.com/user/franticfoxx
Thursday, April 15, 2010
I've come to realize
I've come to realize that I will never be able to look up to my parents for support. Not that they DON"T support me, but it's the fact that they don't feel that they need to show it.
My mother feels that her belief in "tough love" is what will make me do great it life. Well mom, I'm almost 20 years old and I still have not pleased you in one aspect of my life. Every move, every word, every action that I take upon myself, you have a shit comment to say about it. The words that leave your mouth astound me, and hurt me beyond belief. You will never understand how much your words affect me deep down. You refuse to believe that anything you say can affect someone's well being. Every tear that I cry from you, will create a scar that you can never notice.
I've come to realize that if I ever want to stay happy, I have to forget my parents. They cannot be part of my happiness. As terrible as it sounds, it is true in my world. I know they love me, but the disappointment that they say I bring them is to much for me to handle, and I will be better off without them standing by my side. I never received the amount of understanding or confidence from either my mom or dad, that I would have preferred. It's is up to myself to create my own happiness.
What I don't understand; is how you can be so oblivious to how I became so hostile. Mom; you were always negative, you always had something to say, and never seemed to be happy with anything. And thanks to you, I sadly am growing to become the exact same way, except, I know what can make me happy. I know what is real and I know what is important in life. I never want to become like you, I hope and pray I become my own person, and learn from your flaws.
i don't hate my parents. I just don't feel loved, or wanted around them. I have apparently disappointed them so much in my years of growing up, I believe they have given up on me. I am fucking trying. But thats not transferring through your thick headed skulls. I am trying to ignore the horrendous comments mom says to me about how i am not good at anything. You fucking try to ignore such remarks. Tell me, how would you feel? I would like to know.
I've come to realize, I do need a lot of help. But help from people around me, and not from my parents. I need to process the information that my friends give me to help me become more of a confident person. Growing up I have lost the ability to know what is real, and what is fake. My mom would tell me one thing, but my friends told me another. Who do I believe? My mom tells me I was getting "BIG" my friends tell me I was never "BIG." whats fucking true?
to be continued..
My mother feels that her belief in "tough love" is what will make me do great it life. Well mom, I'm almost 20 years old and I still have not pleased you in one aspect of my life. Every move, every word, every action that I take upon myself, you have a shit comment to say about it. The words that leave your mouth astound me, and hurt me beyond belief. You will never understand how much your words affect me deep down. You refuse to believe that anything you say can affect someone's well being. Every tear that I cry from you, will create a scar that you can never notice.
I've come to realize that if I ever want to stay happy, I have to forget my parents. They cannot be part of my happiness. As terrible as it sounds, it is true in my world. I know they love me, but the disappointment that they say I bring them is to much for me to handle, and I will be better off without them standing by my side. I never received the amount of understanding or confidence from either my mom or dad, that I would have preferred. It's is up to myself to create my own happiness.
What I don't understand; is how you can be so oblivious to how I became so hostile. Mom; you were always negative, you always had something to say, and never seemed to be happy with anything. And thanks to you, I sadly am growing to become the exact same way, except, I know what can make me happy. I know what is real and I know what is important in life. I never want to become like you, I hope and pray I become my own person, and learn from your flaws.
i don't hate my parents. I just don't feel loved, or wanted around them. I have apparently disappointed them so much in my years of growing up, I believe they have given up on me. I am fucking trying. But thats not transferring through your thick headed skulls. I am trying to ignore the horrendous comments mom says to me about how i am not good at anything. You fucking try to ignore such remarks. Tell me, how would you feel? I would like to know.
I've come to realize, I do need a lot of help. But help from people around me, and not from my parents. I need to process the information that my friends give me to help me become more of a confident person. Growing up I have lost the ability to know what is real, and what is fake. My mom would tell me one thing, but my friends told me another. Who do I believe? My mom tells me I was getting "BIG" my friends tell me I was never "BIG." whats fucking true?
to be continued..
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Everyone! I am back and kickin!
Hello my cupcakes!
I'm am back :) I have been so so sick the past few days, and I'm finally feeling beetter, thanks to medicine from the hospital lol...
Anyways I don't want to get into that, and be a debbie downer so on to the cool news.
I got my hair done! Much much blonder, and it looks awesome.
Heres a pic!!!!
You like it!??
Also I posted a new video up on youtube! It's my face routine, so go check it out.
Love you allz
xoxo
I'm am back :) I have been so so sick the past few days, and I'm finally feeling beetter, thanks to medicine from the hospital lol...
Anyways I don't want to get into that, and be a debbie downer so on to the cool news.
I got my hair done! Much much blonder, and it looks awesome.
Heres a pic!!!!
You like it!??
Also I posted a new video up on youtube! It's my face routine, so go check it out.
Love you allz
xoxo
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Enter ♥ Kate Gene ♥ giveaways :)
Contest Entries! Everyone should join :)
First contest is by &heart; Kate Gene &heart;
It's the 100 followers giveaway!!
The deadline is March 1, 2010 !
Heres what you will win!
Heres her link to enter :)
http://katiegene.blogspot.com/2010/01/my-100-followers-giveaway.html
Go do it!
Second Contest is by Kate Gene as well :)
It's a Stila Giveaway! WOO!!
those are what you will win :)
Here's here blog again !
http://katiegene.blogspot.com/
Go enter! You never know if you win!
Love you all
xoox
First contest is by &heart; Kate Gene &heart;
It's the 100 followers giveaway!!
The deadline is March 1, 2010 !
Heres what you will win!
Heres her link to enter :)
http://katiegene.blogspot.com/2010/01/my-100-followers-giveaway.html
Go do it!
Second Contest is by Kate Gene as well :)
It's a Stila Giveaway! WOO!!
those are what you will win :)
Here's here blog again !
http://katiegene.blogspot.com/
Go enter! You never know if you win!
Love you all
xoox
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
PIcs!?
Hey guys!!
I just wanted to post a few pics, let me know what you think of my makeup!!!!
Love you all!
I look shiny in this pic for some reason :X lol
xoxo
I just wanted to post a few pics, let me know what you think of my makeup!!!!
Love you all!
I look shiny in this pic for some reason :X lol
xoxo
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